Totalitarian Lifestyle Choices

Primer No. 1

By Michael Lujan

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In order to truly live a totalitarian lifestyle, it's necessary to give up the illusion that every moment is decided by an act of free will. Or, rather, it's necessary to winnow out the element of choice from the overwhelming majority of one's conscious time. It becomes necessary to recognize just when are those times when one is most likely to be at one's most lucid, and to discipline oneself to use those moments to the utmost for the purposes of decisiveness, direction, and orientation. It is at these moments, and these moments alone, that one's diurnal course should be mapped, with as close to unerring accuracy as is humanly possible, to the conditions enforced by "that which does not go away when one stops believing in it," with a vector aimed at the known (as opposed to the reasoned) limits of the possible and generally oriented in accord with the dictates of volition; or, given an already-elaborated plan, such times should be used to perhaps pause and reconsider, and perhaps to fine-tune, but never to fundamentally question, the sole excepted case being a question of personal survival. The question of the authority of this volition will for the time being left unaddressed; the priority concern for now is with a well-developed and fully articulatable self-differentiation between the obeyed and the obeyer, and those aspects of this relationship availing themselves to the faculty of the perception of conscious awareness, as well as the full flexible exercise of this functionality. The most obvious element in this relationship, then, is the temporal distance between the two terms and their total estrangement from one another. One cannot simultaneously command and obey.

Corollary considerations:

  1. frequency of lucidity
  2. means by which "that which does not go away when one stops believing in it" is known
  3. following on the above, means by which the limits of the possible are known
  4. the derivation of the authority of volition (or, perhaps more accurately, the locus of volition)

1 March 2003